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[Link to Opensea] It's been 3 weeks since I saw the doctor(well, the doctor I see regularly, because I did get a medication because of some skin issues), and it is tomorrow is the day. Last time I wasn't in my best condition, so I was really unstable. But after taking a vacation and having enough time to gather my energy helped me to regain confidence in myself. I think I will be okay. I just need to remember to get up early, and not oversleep, nor go to sleep too late at night. Preferably I should go to sleep before midnight, but I don't feel tired at all at the moment. The weather is quite nice, too. It is finally starting to feel cool at nighttime.
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[Link to Opensea] It's been a while since I wrote anything in English. Recently, I was feeling a bit down - actually, not 'a bit', but pretty dramatically, to be more precise. I thought I shook off most of the negative feelings I had, and the thought turned out to be wrong. Very wrong, indeed. I think that the reason I feel depressed might be related to how I hate myself. Lack of self-confidence. The more I think highly of my background, the more I have to blame myself for the cause of all the misfortune and lack of hard work. Then should I just blame all the other people close to me? Or should I blame the system? Honestly, I think it might be an excuse, not a proper solution. But... Blaming myself does not solve the root of the problem either. I think I should just toughen up, get a grip, and try to make a simpler approach to life. Living happy is really harder than saying 'I want to live a happy life'. Or is it? I may be already happy, but doesn't know that
